if you've been Bad or Good

after watching the complete first season of american horror story, i will admit to finding evan peters attractive.

maybe it was the portrayal of his character (oh that troubled youth would affect me again!) or the way he looked in bedhead hair with oversized sweaters or when he would wear that gimp suit--but he ensnared me. i want to curl up in bed with him and stare into his soulful eyes. or do whatever people do in beds..the most appealing aspect of evan peter's take on tate langdon was his devotion, how he would do anything to protect violet, how he couldn't fathom to be away from her, like violet was the only thing in the world that mattered (this came to be that one time when he told her she had been the light in the darkness he was made of). ...in my case, this has never happened to me. mr. peters fulfills the fantasy of knowing that one day i'll meet someone (dead or alive) who cares. and then i started to watch the second season of american horror story (asylum) and mr. peters was in it too as kit: 

there's something about him that's so... irresistible. what i wouldn't give to have him look at me that way,,, and today i started thinking, comparing if you will, a similar actor, someone who might make an interesting chiaro to mr. evan's scuro. the conclusion was michael cera.

look at that. i mean, there's some kind of white guy weirdo resemblance that i definitely can't shake. michael cera is not darkness or trouble or anything negative really. whenever i look at him, or even think about his voice, i smile and imagine rainbows, cotton candy, and dolphins frolicking in a purple sea. something pleasant, slightly lisa frank. 

...it's not quite as attractive...maybe cute? geeky, nerdy, i play video games for 13 hours a day cute? well, he's still someone i like. i can't believe he's canadian, it's totally news to me. 

anyway, this side-by-side comparison is kinda hilarious.

i don't know why this is a christmas post. 

santa should've left this to fill my stocking.

hohoho.

these holiduds

Christmas is upon us yet again. Well, there isn't really anything to stop it; attempts to usurp or destroy Santa haven't exactly been executed properly in the past and then there are other..things to deal with that aren't quite fictional. I don't know about this year, if there was anything to look forward to that was worth the wait or trouble...but maybe that can be said about anything that i've gone through. It's been wrought with disappointment and stress in general. No matter what I do, this year especially, I was overcome with things that caused me to worry, to actually cry in the company of strangers (or usually, how it's done, alone), and i was incapable of just trying to brush it off.



yes. that's a santa sitting in someone's porch.

This is not so much a christmas post, per se, but sort of an early reflection. The end of every year, I would say after I graduated from secondary school, causes me to wonder what I'm good for, what future awaits me, my purpose for existence. I'm here. I need to know why.
Or at least make up a why.

I've been a villain. My name's on the NAUGHTY list.

It is xmas eve, y'alls. i can't remember what i was doing last year (supposing it wasn't the greatest in a while). i don't think i'll be treasuring this year any much. i guess the only thing that isn't making me feel any more the upset is knowing that this can't possibly be the lamest anyone else i know is experiencing. ah, i think that makes sense if i read it back. waiting, if i survive, for next year to roll around.

oh my god, it's so short.
and..that's what i said.

nonono, nary cris'mas

i intended to make an xmas post yesterday, but compromising situations arose and i had no time and eventually forgot. so, to my dismay, i have to admit that i watched avatar. it was inevitable. mind you, i had no intention to ever see that movie, not even when it would make it to basic tv; that shit didn't/doesn't interest me, the story was blegh and i just didn't like the whole thing nor could i understand why some people were going crazy over it.
after watching it i have to say that it was tolerable. it was interesting. i was partially to those flying things that looked like pterodactyls. the story is basically the same as ferngully.


the same. less scary, though, without that pollutant/evil chemical character voiced by tim curry. less enjoyable, too.

XMAS SUXXXX

well, it was cold. and, besides my contracted illness, sneezing & sniffling from an overload of foreign pet fur/dander. it was fun. ate some good ol' filipino ka'in as well as other foods. it was difficult to resist the eggrolls. watched and later played left 4 dead. intense, but not as frightening as i would've thought (tiring of zombies? ..i still enjoy the fresh flesh consumption and psychology behind them). gift-giving, some based on secret santa, and more video games (mirror's edge. i thought it was good graphically before..and it's amazing although difficult). that was all christmas eve into the day 'cuz we stayed at that party 'til almost three.

we returned the next day for more food and i watched more game-play--i could no longer follow the story. drove around to places we once frequented. for dinner we went to see some family friends i hadn't seen/had contact with since ten years ago. that was rather frightening. most of what i saw consisted of drastic changes and "maturity". it was plain weird. ...anyway! here are some winter related pictures to delight y'all with.




ok. i totally know this doesn't look wintry or xmas related but..it's kinda funny. and it was taken during this time.


it's nice to be home now.
why does everyone have a wii?