Leave me want in MOR

This is a dilemma. Why do these yearnings happen to me at the most inopportune times? For the most inappropriate people?

This is probably the third person I've developed feelings for in this manner. The original impression is one of grotesque repulsion..that morphs into a sense of pity and...ridiculous wanting. Very, very, very dumb desire.
I'm a little eager to be ending up alone.
And concerned about how quickly I make irrational judgments.

Also, I am obsessed with this right now: Movies re-imagined for another time and place. Leonard Nimoy as John McClane and Trainspotting directed by Godard? YES.

I'm in the process of developing a time altering or traveling apparatus to make this shit happen.